Welcome on board Hound.
I can say I know the feeling.Taking the first option was exhausting to me.It never works also no matter how hard you are ready armed to answer or deal with deconstructing cynical individuals unless you take that latter option you took to heal alittle and to re-bond with your own self ,in order to come back again.
It happened to me in Facebook!.Although I never came back eventually at all! I found other better options than facebook.
I guess I can say Welcome back ,if you feel you are back.
Oh!.I never would have guessed.More talking gives me more learning I guess!.Perhaps many of us went through hard times!. I guess its one true represented aspect for Vampyric life.I pictured you having no pain in the past at all!.
Its ok…I did not mean anything by that..I get your point.But some make use of getting to know romantic and sexual orientations ..maybe also ethnicity of vamps..in the process of grasping more about members of the community.WE DO COME FROM ALL GENDERS ,AREAS,WALKS OF LIFE..I trust that as a fact.
Its ok.I love our talks.Thanks for following.By the way,..I loved your blog(because you posted a link for it).
TOV?? Are you refering to (Temple of Vampire)?? -because there are about 27 acronym meaning for TOV.:) 🙂
I don’t follow the temple of Vampire.Perhaps you concluded that because I touched on (the vampire bible) in once topic?
oh no,..Im a loner.But my experience is always COLLECTIVE .I wander .
mmmmm…thanks for sharing your understanding of other kin!.
Interesting choice too.He was neat.The Romanian accent was.I love the film itself.Although mom disagreed that he looked Slavic as Dracula..she says he looks more French! funny Richard is Aussie.
Welcome on board madamme! )O(.
*The blood is the life.
Amen to that Kinesia.
Thank you !)O( .
You reminded me to mention that these claims/convictions were also mentioned on a pop cultural level…in the Telly show (Ghost Whisperer)! .There was an episode about Jennifer Love Hewitt trying to help a girl with the spirit of her boyfriend visiting her in the form of a vampire!..by the end of the episode ..Hewitt who acts the role of a psychic helping people with attached ghosts to cross over ..says that among all the beings she met in other realms there ARE NO VAMPIRES..its why she realized that the boy taking that form was out of psychological issues that made him attached after his death!!!.
I was surprised.I know for a fact after practicing Luciferian magick (I practiced what ever you name..I did try) that there is indeed a whole realm of vampyric hungry spirits..that feed on the frightened (as you hint…maybe they were exploring half way out of fear not caution as I call it …to me now occult is a trip you make all THE WAY ..and nothing is safe in life anyway).
*The blood is the life.
Thank you so much both ladies )O(.
*The blood is the life.
Lady CG ,Alexia,Amelia Nightside,..thank you because this thread is very useful to me!.
I agree with the three of you.
And as for sure (to me) I know there are hypnotic techniques and spells that can transform you into a vampire(Sang) !.Still either you were really a vampire before it or not may always remain a dispute/open end to the invistigation.This maybe related and affective on the whole immune issue that Alexia referred to.
I know people who AWAKENED /transformed in their own opinion without spells /hypnosis /conjuration /contact with other vampires…and yes the blood lust was REAL ..though they never had it before.
Psychology may also mention (Reinfield syndrome) but Im not sure if the syndrome is a narrow mind human psychology description of Vampires(as in their conviction we are not real we just feel that way)..or is it really a SUGGESTIVE state that can trigger so called transformation in ANYONE!.
Finally in spiritual existential sense everyone is a vampire to a degree(psy at least).
Its alright ..its irrelevant but its who you are too!.
No that’s alright ..the latter is crystal clear.Thanks.:).
If what you see as integral identity is deeper than just feeling like a species /creature..or describing as one on more than few chosen aspects…then I DO SEE VAMPIRISM AS INTEGRAL IDENTITY TOO AND A SPIRITUAL PATH (not CHOSEN -because during the awakening you do some study..if not that’s also fine..but I don’t see it as a CHOSEN but its a history and that’s it and I embrace it all ..it helped).
What I meant is that vampire kin are sometimes seen as wannabies by some sanguinarians..and I do understand that for sure ..everyones perception of themselves as a vampire is BLUR LIKE YOU SAID.
It will be interesting that people who identify as Jesus or Mary Magdalene reincarnated are considered other kin by some people!!!.Like Alan J. Miller in Australia ..and another two fellows in Russia and USA also claim they are Jesus made flesh again!.
Thanks for hinting the source out .In the process of quoting I don’t mean stealing..its just the words are well put and they made a good introduction ffor me to the post.
Awake and drink is very helpful vampire resource.
Im other kin too!.Actually to some animal brothers and sisters. Cat ,Bat ,Wolf kin ,.Bear and horse also .
I say Im xenogender.Despite my respect to mortals when I used to identify as one..I was swinging between neutral to humans or misandroist sometimes.
I think its also fair enough to mention my sexuality(don’t get me wrong…its just because you mentioned yours)…Im homosexual..homo-flexible…polyamourous..androgynous..non binary..and somewhere between demi-romantic and grey romantic.
Good to hear about your feeling ,and code about being a vamp.
well..maybe I will disagree.I used to have a somewhat resembling code to yours..I suffered lust and starvation ..even on a psychic level I was waiting for consent.
Im not sucking mortals out of revenge or uncontrol (then again we all have a constant craving,so do they actually more than they even percieve..its why many of them don’t respect animals or humans or nature)…but now I suck whenever I want…BUT IT DOESN’t MEAN I DON’T PICK THE MEAL.
Forgive me for saying they are a meal!.Sometimes I say (Im going hunting ) inside my mind .
Same for magick..I used to go by the rede(an ye harm none do what ye will)..then again..Mother Nature does not abide by the rede!.So its just like good fellow Crowley said (Do what ye will).
Im not good little vampire..neither am I evil.Nothing is.Maybe in sucking SOME others with no consent,Im saving others in the process.mmm…yes…maybe Lestat has a point in Anne Rice’s books about sucking the evil doers only!.I suck good ones sometimes too.It depends.
Partly ..I know Im flesh and blood.But I will just say …(Im flesh and blood but don’t identify as human/but not human )..I respect them (not as meals but beings too along with their choices and civilization despite they are lower of course in my view of the great chain of beings).
Amelia,I apologize.Must have mixed two threads in my memory after reading them at once.But you did mention it in (waves in greetings).haha.