I guess I will start.
I am a Universal feeder or a hybrid, was once called Lady Hybrid by an enemy, lol.
I need blood, I hate it but crave it, I have got sick by denying my need to often to be proud of it. Will suddenly remember that I need a raw venison steak and be a stubborn idiot about it. It grounds me and keeps me centred. I have had blood donors in the past and it was a love/hate relationship. I have never liked my need for blood but cannot change who I am for it. It kicked in with puberty and very much linked to my sexuality. I have worked magic and formed a binding grid to bury it and went asexual for about two months until I got angry at something and the binding collapsed and I was very sick for a while. I cannot go without blood for longer than that. If I am off Center and bad tempered I am blood hungry. I seem to need the resistance to it as well.
I feed off emotional and sexual energies easily, like a dance. I cause chaos in my wake when hungry since I was a young child. I see living auras and practice my witchcraft with it. Curses and flung energy is food to me….shields are like a sample dish. I can trigger emotional responses to feed off. I can see and manipulate both on and offline, but have been made aware that if the other is also a energy feeder or psychic this can piss them off a lot, even unconsciously. I have learnt to weave my energy around me and dance in a field of chaos…. you will see what you want to see, not necessarily me. Lol
I can teach this.
I am Luciferian/Mercurian and seek altered states to evolve. Vampiric Sorcery has helped me for the past 12 years to evolve fast. Sex & Blood Sorcery is easy for me. I also practice Predatory Vampirism which is part of the LHP – the Left Hand Path.
I got a couple of books published on Amazon, one called Being A Psychic Vampire.
No, I don’t mention my blood addiction in too many public places but am totally honest and open about the energy side.
I am also in a relationship with an eros vampire which has taught me lots about sexual feeding and being a donor.
My parents, siblings and children also have Vampire traits, so I believe that this is hereditary.
Ask & Be Answered.
So say hello and let our dance begin…
We have a bad reputation, we cause trouble often to feed off it and we go too long without feeding we can start to auto-feed without being aware of it. Drama will be a constant reminder to feed.
We get low and ill without that something that cannot be measured or put under a microscope. We are not going to find a physical solution soon unless it is ‘all in our heads’ and can be drugged or hypnotised out of us. Like a cure for being gay, a cure for being a psychic vampire is not going to happen. To be a psychic vampire requires you learn to be aware of your energy at all times. Like someone with diabetes, monitoring your levels is a daily thing.
Most of us are born that way. Some are created through long term deficiency. Some may have a possessive spirit attached that also push us into needing the extra something.
We mostly awaken into chaos, drama and trouble.
It goes off like emotional fireworks all around us.
“Why is everyone always picking on me?” is the general cry.
…and the answer is very simple.
You are feeding off everyone around you and on most levels they know it and get a bit angry about it. Every animal knows when it is being used as food, including humans.
You didn’t even ask first.
Pain, and above all NEED.
The main reason I call myself vampire is the hunger that burns inside of me. I can see it in all ‘real’ vampires. It is the hunger that marks us most of all.
Psychic Vampires are not that different from the blood drinkers in their signs and symptoms.
Fatigue, deep, chronic tiredness that does not seem to fade with sleep or rest.
We are like vessels that leak, where we leak the most depend on our genetics, life style and environment. Most get headaches and get really listless. Trying desperately to find what they need in sex, drugs and loud music. The number of drug addicts that have the psychic vampire trait is huge.
After a while of not feeding you start to hear and see the world in full on, no holds barred, 3D, in your face, over the top sensation. It doesn’t stop. Colours are every where, streaming off people in waves, watching them clash and swirl even with your eyes shut. Sound goes up and up and up with no remote to turn it down, you can be punched hard with a shout or scream. People stink to high heaven and you can smell shit and cigarettes everywhere. You can pick up emotions from everything you touch and the soap powder rubs rashes into your skin.
Psychic abilities are strong with most of us, but you have to be able to bring what you feel back to the body. To be able to ground and central is essential….and we cannot. There is no ground or center. When overwhelm hits you cannot shield out the thoughts and emotions, they blast at you from every direction until you are begging for something, anything to shut it out, just for a minute.
Defining the undefinable. What are we trying to feed off?
Energy is such a lose term. Yet without it we get so low and in pain we can hardly function. Normal humans eat food and dance in the sunlight. I have played with every diet you can think of and trained as a nutritionist for answers. There is no ‘super-food’ for me. I hunger for something else.
We toss words around like ‘prana’, ‘core’ and ‘Qi’ but we do not know for sure. You cannot use scientific tools to measure thought and emotion…yet. They can see where the thought comes from but not what is is. Kirlian photography comes close, and studies have and are being done.
But that is not going to help me with my hunger now.
I do not care what label you put on me, I need to feed.
You start with what you know and then take it further. There is no one to do this for you, you are really on your own here. Daily feeding will be needed, probably for the rest of your life.
Learn to sip the top of the energy column that is coming off all life forms. A crowd is a good place to start. Like the top of a candle, this energy is just flowing out to the universe. See it as a free snack. Drawing it in through tendrils, breath, visualisation. It doesn’t really matter, pull the top of that flame towards you and inhale it. It is like a sip of water when you are dying of thirst. It often feels like a pain killer kicking in. Crowds have it rolling of them and you are not hurting anyone with this type of feeding, they do not notice.
If I am hungry drama will happen around me. Feed me first and I can hold space, be more focused and aware of every energy flowing better than anyone else. There are many people out there that will feed you energy if asked. In this, the blood drinkers have it harder. I can flirt with someone and gently ask for energy, the answer is rarely no.
Learn to ask, you will be surprised. I was.
I learnt to draw through my hands at first. Placing my hands on their skin and gently pulling in. I breathe it in now. Working past the mental and emotional layers to the soul level…again my labels may mean nothing to you. Just go deep into the person and you find an area that is rich, so rich, it nearly makes me cry. You never really look at a human the same again. They are the most complex and beautiful beings alive. To look at the soul of a human and draw just a tiny amount into yourself is better than chocolate and sex combined. The flavours are rich beyond anything I have ever experienced. It is pure life and it probably is an addictive drug in itself.
The world is clearer and I am fully alive again. Sensations are manageable and the pain and hunger pales into insignificance. I am whole again.
They often feel connected and an odd relief at being fed off. I do not understand it fully, but I know they are not in pain from what I do. A core feeding often drains them to a tired drowsy state. Watching them sleep afterwards is often rewarding. Holding space for someone while they relax and heal is something you can give back. A donor is a very beautiful being.
With practice you can learn to go beyond the physical boundaries and feed from a distance. Someone you meet online can give you that pain-killer.
People come in flavours… you can learn to feed off specific flavours like pain, anger and grief. You are not now a trouble maker or parasite but can absorb and feed off ‘negative’ emotions to become a benefit to your community. You can learn to feed off the wave form, not the thought form attached, making all energy just energy…not negative or positive. You can take away someone’s pain and watch them find ease in their bodies again.
What was once a curse can become a blessing.
Some of us attract trouble. We do not have to do anything to attracted it, our presence is often enough. It is like some of us are a large rock dropped into a pond of people and the ripples are often pure chaos.
We trigger emotion or issues in people mostly without conscious knowledge or understanding of what we are doing. Those triggers often take the form of drama and conflict, real or imagined, it starts as a small gush and very soon it is splattered all over the walls.
Labels I have tried to find for this quality are psychic vampire, witch, shit stirrer, Luciferian, Satanist, trouble maker, troll, I am sure you know a few more.
I have looked and found lots of reasons that have been offered for this trait. The best is in astrology, now I am not an astrologist I just know the basics here.
As far as I can understand it, we have various planets on the ascendant that trigger other peoples ‘stuff’ when they are around us. I have Pluto on the ascendant which means that if you have any power issues, or issues with your own power, you will have a problem around me. It also covers sex, religion and politics power issues.
Some people have Neptune on the ascendant and they trigger emotional issues in those around them…which might be better..or worse, depending on your point of view.
Human Design describes it as filling empty spaces in each other… two people meet and a third is created, or with the meeting both people are altered into something else. Both influenced by the energy/field/mindset of the other. The third person I create in some another is often highly strung and dramatic. The effects are varied but are often loud and irrational. The traditional idea of PMT in a wave form.
I like these theories but they only explain the cause not the effect.
I stir chaos in situations and people. I do not mean to…not often anyway. My presence alone will stir situations and emotions into drama and conflict, my words might also have something to do with it…but the combination means I have had to learn to hang back in groups of people out of necessity. Both on and off line. If I am tired or feeling low it gets much worse. With a word I have started fires and wars…. and it is not nice. I am not having fun here.
People that have no issues with their own power, I can somehow work well and bond with, but even then it is tough. Strong grounded people who are not afraid of their own power are some of my best friends. We are not in competition and there is just a gentle ebb and flow, these are my stars in my life for they are rare and beautiful beings. I honour them for being above the chaos that I invoke around me.
My study of psychic vampires led me to see the energy flow has a strong one-way flow into me. I pull at all the things you have buried in your field, I cannot seem to stop it unless I am grounded, have slept and fed well. For years I have been doing this without noticing, once I started to see it I wanted to go back and apologise.But I am not, not really. Get real with yourself and see what is in front of you.
Everyone always encourages us all to ‘be ourselves’…I always wondered about that phase and is it really meant.
How much of ‘myself’ can people handle?
It can be used for good as well as bad. As a healer I could trigger a healing crisis and a shift out of a rut or a stasis for a client. I can counsel and just hang around people who want to make a change in their lives. Hang around long enough and chaos will make a call, after decades of watching this occur, I can now guarantee it.
I can channel it into creativity and activity. I often need someone to reflect it back to me to kick me out of a rut. I can be triggered very easily in a direction myself and will often take the lead and push creation into being. Coerce the gods to make manifestation happen NOW!
But mostly I just hang around and watch the ripples happen without apology.
I am what I am..no guilt, shame or sympathy needed. My impact on the world is visible and uncomfortable for some but I also know that it will strengthen them and strip away the falsehoods and unreal issues in their lives. It gets to a point where you have to believe you are serving people perfectly. I do not create the chaos, just trigger that which was already inside you.
I have been experimenting online and found that those that I thought had no issues with their own power and safe for me to ‘be myself’, were not as secure as I thought with their own power. It is regretful, I enjoyed the ebb and flow of being around solid people….When you have found your feet again, please look me up, I liked you.
The Winds of Chaos touch most people around me and I am not alone in this. I have watched others do the same….beautiful Chaos Vampires at work.
I am also an excellent mirror. You will see what you are in me..
That drama thing seems to follow me around like my shadow, but as it has always been there and is part of my core being I am not going to start worrying about it now. When I am strong and believe in myself it can be used to focus and direct action and there is pure manifestation going on.
This is a ‘real’ world, OU thing. It has tangible impact in the material world and like everything can go very wrong very fast. In this I am a force of nature, like my 13 year old daughter…sigh…
So, is this a ‘psychic vampire’ thing, searching for energy when low to feed off and causing or triggering chaos to get it?
I believe so. Denying, I don’t feed off it if it is there would be a lie. I can get high off it… and that is my truth. Do I like the fact my friends are going through personal power issues and drama overload because of me…no, of course not. But it is in my nature…
Chaos is part of the illusion of duality, which means it has at its heart order… after a storm you find the greatest peace. Once I have nothing to trigger in you …you are strong and empowered and able to find true inner peace…I have seen that happen too. There is a pattern here if you know what to look for.
I think everyone can do it but it seems to be a constant thing in some of us that cannot switch it off. It does lead us into being very solitary and introverted..not necessarily by choice. Partners have to be hardy and able to weather the storms that blow in, seemingly uncalled for into the relationship. They are there, trust me on that. I think you can even create a strong partner that can with stand the touch of chaos…but it will take some trials and errors.
In groups you will find me erratic, I storm in and through. When I travelled to Bali they had a tradition that they would not come out of their houses unless their energy was positive and loving…I do not have that luxury, but it is a good idea. I have learnt a lot by embracing the psychic vampire trait of monitoring my energy ebb and flow. If there is an ebb, perhaps it is better to just ‘stay home’ and avoid the triggering of the chaos waves in people?
I have found a new way of exploring my creativity and it feeds me better than writing.
I have been painting furniture with acrylic paints and varnishing them and have just started to sell them. I have an Etsy and Amazon shop and recently got a workshop/studio to expand and grow beyond my former self.
Dabbling in the many creativity pools over the last two decades left me rather irritated with the whole thing. I have never really got what I put into it. Writing allows me to express myself and my experience on this material level…but it did boil down to a solid ‘so what’.
I lost interest in your approval or understanding.
I lost interest in trying to teach you anything to make your lives/understand/coping methods better. You, the readers, are mostly passive, if you don’t understand me or what I have tried to explain and haven’t asked me for further explanation, then I have to walk away figuring that there is no interest in what I am talking about.
So I have moved inward….Deeper, further, more, is my affirmation now. Go to the core, deeper…why? What is the truth here?
I freely admit to being a psychic vampire, I wrote and published a book on it for a start. The responses to it was very positive. I didn’t reach many but those that I did reacted well. My slant is different to the mainstream but many did get what I was trying to explain. Being seen and understood was a need then…not so much now.
But I had to go deeper, the story did not end at the last chapter.
There is a buzz when you create something. When I finished my books it was sheer elation. Energy food floods in….nomnomnom. That was a first clue.
To link inward to a creative source was hard at first, I needed someone to show me how. I energetically linked to another and saw how he did it. Comprehension was slow…I needed confidence and have always lacked that in my creation. But I was inspired by the buzz and found some of my old paints, and painted the rusty old door of my little freezer in my kitchen. I felt the buzz and was fed… deeper, further, more…a cabinet that wasn’t being used, a Teak Sideboard found at the dump for a fiver, a chest of draws, a mirror, a wooden basket…my skills improving infront of me. Copying images is flowing to piecing together many images to seeing the images in my head and painting them, bringing them into this Objective Univers from the Subjective….becoming a Creator.
The energy field that I have been feeding on, is huge. In all my years of ambient, donated and stolen energy to keep level I have never had so much.
I am a Creator.. I feed from the Creative Source. I am still trying to understand this further but it is real, deep and consistent.
I don’t need people anymore.
It has taken me a few months to work out what I was doing and to trust it. Paint is glorious colour to mix and blend with endless possibilities. It is so very scary to be in front of a piece of furniture or canvas and just do. I understand why I have faltered here in the past. I also understand why people need passion and drive to to this. It gets to the point of the fear is overcome with the need for that food, that passion and link to the Source.
I am still addicted… I still need to feed. But now I don’t need you.
So the dance is still going deeper, further, more.
I feel different and cleaner in my energy fields. I cannot bear unkindness and the bitchy behaviour of most of Facebook these days on any level. Mean spirited words and passive aggressive behaviour is like an irritating bug that must be shooed away to do its thing someplace else. I see clearer into the heart of things now and am less focused on people. Politics of any sort no longer amuses.. it makes me feel like a parent, children please stop this nonsense. I don’t care so much any more about the larger bullshit picture. The small stuff is where magic is now worked.
Be kind it costs little and stains less. Trust me on this.
I am moving away from reading people and their worlds of relationships, career and outer wants… look deeper, further, more. My tarot and crystal ball reading days are over…I no longer grieve for it.
I still see energy, spirits and demons, there are many more of them these days as the fear levels rise. I understand these vampiric spirits very well, not all of all them cause the fear to feed off it….many try to help. The larger ones are wankers that have been playing the same game for centuries and don’t want it changed. They are much more scared of change than you are. I do want change…and from the ground level up..only by movement do we grow. Chaos only looks bad to those that need stagnation.
Change is my friend..these large vampiric spirits are trying to keep us in the same paradigm. If you are scared of change you are feeding the vampiric demon spirits. I see it too clearly now. Lighten up…the best way of moving through the fear is to laugh at it…satire is white magic here. Those that make us laugh when things look dark and scary are our heroes, they hold the fear at bay if we let them
To those that follow love and light, angels and sun beams, I am a monster. I get it and don’t care any more. I have been what they are on both sides of the illusionary fence. I have been the demon that feeds of anything it can find to survive and the healer that gives of herself until there is nothing left….. but I learnt to be more much and I am still evolving.
Today I am a Creator.
I have read it.