I mean, at 27 I’m really not “old” by any stretch, however between age, chronic condition and life in general. I feel like “energy” has never really been enough. Then again, good active deep feeds on willing donors is something I struggle to acquire and always have. Either I doubt my own ability, or I just fumble too much with the connection/draw and ultimately give up, leaving my body to naturally fend for itself. I know my body auto-draws frequently, and I know the best way to control that is to actively take care of it, I just can’t figure it out.
When I was younger, as a teen and very early 20 something, I felt like, though my method of feeding (mostly ambient and auto) wasn’t enough then, it still sufficed, it got me through. Now, though yes of course, control is better, I feel need is worse. I feel my symptoms worsen. .. and as you may have noticed, I’m strongly contemplating blood donation because aside from legalities, it’s simple. Physical and there is no doubt as to what and how I’d be consuming. I have had it in the past (though just barely) and recognize the energy in it. I just need something and I’m slowly growing more frustrated as well, it’s getting more difficult to function day to day. Medical professionals only help so much, considering despite treating my physical diagnosees, I’m still heavily symptomatic.
I suppose I haven’t quite acquired the wiser approach bit yet.
Hello and Welcome (:
Welp, no one has said “no”, so I’ll be listing ways you can contact me outside of this forum.
If you wanna remain connected, feel free to share your own links for me to follow.
1. Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/A.Nightside/
– Unfortunately due to FB’s Real Name policy, this is a page and not a full profile. But you can still “like” or follow it to be in direct and regular contact with me.
2. Google+: https://plus.google.com/u/0/+AmeliaNightside
4. WordPress: https://littlenightside.wordpress.com/
5. Twitter: https://twitter.com/A_Nightside
That’s all I can think of right now. I am a member of a few other forums such as werelist, AVA, and more. Please feel free to ask/specify if you wanna find me anywhere else
I recall you referencing it when describing your personal path of “vampirism”.. Perhaps I’m misremembering.
I was talking in terms of this very specific thread/subject.
If we were talking about genders and sexuality of vampires, then sure, it might be relevant, but that’s not the original question you posed.
The only substitutes I’ve been able to use with any level of success are:
a varied mixture of vegetable juice, pomegranate juice and/or red wine
Other than that, nothing else really satiates, and the “craving” just weakens, then ebs and flows periodically
Very cool. Do you might if I share with my group pages, or add to my site as external resources?
I think you’re probably asking Kaia, but just in case…
If you’re asking me, I don’t mind. I’m also always open for suggestions, just leave a comment or contact me in whatever way you’re most comfortable.
Hi ya! ^_^
Good to see you still around.
I apologize for misunderstanding your vampirism. I was under the impression that the TOV was a ritualized, chosen path.
I don’t see Vampirism and Otherkin as even related, not directly anyway.
Vampirekin =/= Human-Living Vampire.
Otherkin is defined as someone who identifies as nonhuman. Someone identifying as a mythological or historical human character is not technically Otherkin.
My vampirism/need to feed and possibly related traits do not make me nonhuman. However I am also Otherkin/Therian because on an integral and internal level I identify as nonhuman.
Ambient and Autofeeds are exceptions where consent is concerned. I used to suffer huge guilt over feeding though, and managed to recognize autofeeds pretty regularly. I got used to starving myself. It’s kind of a habit I’ve been trying to break in more recent life.
I did not mention my sexuality here. That was part of my introduction and is kind of irrelevant here. I’m also not sure how gender relates here either. Species identity has nothing to do with gender.
I am physically human. Though I possess an extra need as a vampire, and identify as nonhuman as a therian/otherkin. I am just as much a person as anyone sitting next to me on the bus, or at work, or in school. I do not feel lesser or greater than those who are different than I am.
I only feed with consent, be it direct and immediate consent, or general umbrella consent, as I call it.
I’m not sure what you’re asking.
Otherkin is an integral identity.
Vampires well, that blurs a bit. I consider it an integral identity, whereas someone like yourself sees it as an identity, but as a chosen spiritual path or practice.
Otherkin are not with or against vampires, they’re just something else.